Joy and its meaning

 Am i sad i would say no so i m studying and applying in AIML because it has data and i have been always interested with data.So why you drink yesterday is not it due to some vacant space within you that you wants to fill with other things there is an inadequate thrust of something or you are not finding more exciting things to fill it with joy except that what could be some other choices.

Some other choices could be immersed in my work and treat my work as gods work which would fill joy  in the world and remove sufferings this is what business is all about.I am lacking in my preparation for data science that's the  reason for mine rejection. There are so many people right there who are working are they all looks joyful no not all because they do not wants to work but they have no choices so stop comparing your self with them.I liked two things reading and exploring.

What id joy in my context its being respected,being wanted,happy children and wife,choice to travel any where and answerable to none other then me.what i need to do in order to attend this to start learning ai and build my investment business.Why some people who are intelligent but there inner core is just vacant they might have worked on there skills but not on there inner engineering,They do not understands between symbolic representation and physical meaning that rama - ravana are symbols of our own self.

Now lets go deeper in meaning of joy - company of friends with small whiskey or beer,reading nice book of travel,adventure,company of brilliant people.

If joy where job was i happy when working no i was not though it gave me material to escape true joy can be from doing job that one desire and it helps some one in good way.

All though its a hard time but it also a transition time from living life by default and then taking life in one's own hand about what to do and how to do never before this we have this chance.I have watched that there is continuous sense of consumption in me any type especially food even my stomach is full why is it so may be due to seeking of joy from external sources when it lays inside me i feel to eat something now or drink a tea or drink whiskey or go for a walk as its morning 6 am and its foggy cold outside.When i was in my village i craving to clean the field always comes inside me.Cannot i remain quite and still do some reading writing or coding work which is a creator mindset from consumption mindset consumption is easy to get fast to get intoxicated and helps to detached from our present situation.